André's Blog

One year ago,
18 december 2005, at 23:53 local time (GMT+1)
That’t the time Julia added me to MSN.

(And yes, Julia, I know you have been reading
my blog for the past weeks. StatCounter.com FTW!)

So, since you’re reading this anyways, I want to take
you back to an other day, a memory of the person you used
to be, kind, understanding, and always prepared to help a
friend. Remember that night, that night, we stayed all
night, talking to mimi, that night she was really feeling
like shit. It was a friday, I stayed awake till about
3 AM. We talked to her all night, trying te help her.

Yes, that’s what used to be. Always trying to help a friend.
That’s also what BlaatSchaap used to be about,
BlaatSchaap, a family, always ready to help each other.

I don’t know if you remember those days, but I do.

I also remember the things you said about mimi,
when she broke up with toni, was with dustin, and back
with toni again.

That person, and you, are different people.

Two letters, two CDs, and my memories of who you used
to be, that’s all I’ve left from what used to be us.

What about you? Do you still have the letters I sent?
My cds and dvds? and the necklace? I remember how
you freaked out when you lost it, back then, but
what about now?

This week I have been listening some music I usually don’t.
Been looking through my music collection, and listened
to what whould be a normal playlist about two years ago,
containing scooter, yakooza, groove coverage and Specail D.
Then, I have been listening to classical music,
Christmas Songs, a list of music from cds about 2002-ish.
A list of dutch songs from the 90’s. BassHunter and Kobojsarna.

Lots of different music, what isn’t in every week.
The week is over soon, so we’ll see what my stats do :P :P

So, today, a wednesday, that means, no classes.
Usually I go to Hans to watch dvds then, but today
we went to the christmas caves in Valkenburg.

So, we went to Valkenburg by train.
There are two chistmas caves, and the first cave
we went to was the ‘gemeentegrot’
It was nice cave, and I bought some stuff over there
including a salt lamp, and some presents for shanna
and joyce.

After we visited the cave, Hans and I had some
Reibekuchen, and walked towards the other cave.
We stopped at a pub, were I had a glass of glühwein.
( Hans just had a cola ) And we went off to the
other cave, the “fluweelengrot”. In that cave, there
were exhabitions with clay dolls. Really great looking.
They turned out to be hand-made, and we had a talk
with the artist who made them in the cave.
Yeah… quitte cool to have a talk with such great artist.
And also, another artist was in the cave, a painter, who
made quitte good paintings. Also talked to him a bit.

Well … off course it was still a christmas market, and not
an art exhabition, but well … the stuff to buy was better
at the other cave, but the art, really beautifull.
At the fluweelengrot I bought some christmas lights,
that’s about it.

After also visiting that cave, we went to eat a pancake,
and then went back home,

Yay, yesterday there was some activity back in
#BlaatSchaap. The Chatroom is back to life!
I hope it stays thay way, but with the return of
both sara and justin into the channel, and two
new recruits, eva-lution and Svavelflickan,
the activity has returned, and even MiniKirk
joined the conversation, who is usually only
ideling.

So, the chatroom was back to live yesterday.
Just hope it will stay that way,

that’s all for now, my friends
cya in the chatroom.

What happened to the girl i used to love, who once said
that her worst fear was losing me, to turn into the girl
that said that she doesn’t love me anymore?

In the conversation she dumped me she said:
“sometimes what your heart says
and what your mind says
are different things
always go with your mind
because the heart can lie”

But that’s not true, the mind can lie too. And it did,
at least to me. For months, my intuition was telling me
there is something wrong, but my mind told me not to
worry, my mind told me that everything was fine, while
my intuition was screaming otherwise.
How many times did I ask her “Is something wrong?”
because I just … I just felt like something was wrong,
but she always answered “Everything is fine.” And after
a while, I just gave up asking, knowing she wouldn’t
answer.

So, yesterday I talked to a person who I haven’t talked to
in months. Brent Newhall, from the #syllable chatroom
at FreeNode.
So, well for not having talked in a few moths, we talked a
while, about school, coding projects, and stuff like that.
But well, Brent didn’t know yet about the fact Julia dumped me,
and so asked how she was. So, I told him what happened,
and I guess, maybe he is right he was right when he said

dec 03 00:22:35 «BrentNewhall» Painful, but better to move on than stay in a dead-end relationship.

Anyways, it seems my fucking laptop started to get broken again!!!
I am starting to hate Asus…

Well, I haven’t posted in a few days, so i decided
to blaat some more in here.

Yesterday afternoon I went to DJ Kicken ( Henri Kicken )
To hook up his PC I fixed. Been there all afternoon,
setting up some stuff, like shared printer and shared folders.
Well, the printer didn’t want to be shared, some restrictions
in the EPSON driver software, so unfortunately that didn’t work.
Well, I guess, just me, fixing the PC of a famous dutch DJ,
oh well… maybe he is famous, but he is still a normal person.

Then some school blaat, We are in a audio project,
we need to code a program that applies some filters
and sound effect to sound. First I had to code a RIFF/WAVE
file reader. My source codes are online at
http://www.xs4all.nl/~andrevs/prohes
if someone wants to take a loot at it.

Seeing the end of the year coming near, I already started
writing a review of the past year. So it will be online in time
this year, becuase I was a little late last year, wasn’t I? :P
And well … last year it was in dutch, this year it will be in
english, in this blog.
And lately I have kinda neglected my dutch blog, since I guess
most readers are english-speaking, and my dutch readers can
read english anyways,

So, now some weather blaat, finally the weather is what it is
supposed to be for this time of year ( 7 *C / 45 * F )
Seriously, we could have had a BBQ for my birthday ( 17 *C / 65 * F)

Oh well … enough blaat for now, thanks for reading.

So, I’m 22 now, and will be for the next year.
Oh well… it’s just a number, but the thing I like,
is just yesterday, having fun with my friends.

So, first at 4 PM, Joyce arrived with the train.
Both Joyce and me are BlaatSchaap members.
BlaatSchaap is a chatroom, and so, both of us,
Joyce at the pc, I at the laptop, so we were chatting.
Kinda funny. Then we watched some anime.
Rurouni Kenshin. Shanna ( also BlaatSchaap member )
was downloading it from my pc. Yeah. I once
downloaded it, because someone ( don’t remember who )
recommended it, but never watched it, untill yesterday.
So, when the episode was almost finished, my phone rang,
to tell me, Hans departing in Sittard and would be at the
train station soon. So, we had to go to the train station again.
At the moment we wanted to leave the house,
Ashley and her bf Ricky arrived. Along with Nicole and Daniël,
who brought them over to my house. So, a with a little delay, we
left again to get Hans from the train station.
When we got back home, we decided to try the music keyboard
for the pc, one of the presents I got from my uncle and aunt.
Hans played some music. Joyce and Hans discussed some games,
Nintendo and stuff, not exactly my thing. So don’t ask me for details,
I don’t know anything about gaming consoles and stuff like that.
Two hours after that, we had to go to the train station again, to
get Chloé and Peter. Ashley and Ricky stayed at home, Ashley
playing with my laptop. ( so I still have to check she didn’t leave
any unwanted messages :P )
So, when we got back, it was time to start eating.
Raclette grill like every year.
After that we went back to my room, Hans played some
more music, and later I just played some mp3s.
Also we got a skype call from Shanna. :) also funny, but
at that moment my uncle came in to ask me something.
And Ricky took the laptop, not sure what he talked about.
But well…
Chloé and Peter went to home with the train again.
Since I didn’t drink any alcohol ( noone did, the first time that
happened since my 15th birthday i guess ) I could drive
some people home, in stead of my uncle. So I had to drive
Joyce, Rickey and Ashley home. That was more trouble then
expected, because the highway to Heerlen was closed, and so,
it took much longer then it normally would. But I got everyone
home, and then, back home, Hans stayed sleeping over here.
So, we only got back at 1 or something like that, driving for like
2 hours i guess ….
So we went to sleep, and slept till 10, found some breakfast,
Nicole and Daniël came also to here, and we ate the leftovers
of the meat, and Hans left back home with the train.

Well, and here a photo of my presents :P