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Ik zit weer eens te lezen. Veel te lang laten liggen dat boek.
Maar jah, nu weer eens een beetje tijd, dus boek erbij,
klassieke muziek aan, en lezen, lekker toch?

Ik zit dus de engelse versie van het eerste Harry Potter boek
te lezen. Lach me echt een deuk soms, echt, als je dat zo
leest, schiet ik soms echt in de lach.

So, I started reading some again, yeah, I know, I am
lazy when it is about reading, but well, I continued
reading the english version of the first Harry Potter
book.
And I am doing this while listening to some Vivaldi.
Classical music is great while reading.

So, now I am free again, I am thinking about resuming
my old habit of shoutcasting every friday night.
So… every friday from 8 PM ( GMT+1 ) I will be
DJ-ing for you people.
When I am broadcasting, you can tune in at the site:
http://blaatschaap.dahstream.nl

Have fun listening,

DeGekkeGek is back!!!!

Zo …. een week vrijheid. En nu ik weer vrij ben,
denk ik dat ik mijn oude gewoonte van vrijdagavond
shoutcasten weer ga hervatten.
Dus vrijdagavond vanaf 20 uur: Radio BlaatSchaap
http://blaatschaap.dahstream.nl
Luister mee ;)

One week ago, I would be dumped by Julia in a new hours.
Now, after one week of freedom. I am happy. I haven’t been
this happy in a while.
Even Shanna said on Skype that I sounds like a different person now.
And this moring at breakfast, my uncle was like wtf, you are smiling
you never do so in the morning.
So,I suppose, it is better this way.

But, Julia, she was ignoring me till yesterday, then we had a kinda
conversation at last.fm shoutbox thingie. She is just being selfish,
and just telling more lies. And she removed it afterwards, no
evidense that it ever took place. The fact that she removed it,
just proves that I am right, it just proves that she lied.

So, let this be a warning : bever date crazy shrink-biting emo bitches!

Goedemorgen!

Ik zit nu bij hans thuis.
Ik zou dus eigenlijk in de programmeer les moeten zitten,
maar de NS heeft besloten vandaag niet te rijden tussen
Roermond en Weert, vanwege een defecte bovenleiding.
De trein die via Venlo naar Eindhoven gaat, was een veel
te kort treintje waar de mensjes als sardientjes in een
blik. Dus Hans, die ik daar op het station tegenkwam,
en ik, zijn dus naar bij hem thuis gegaan.
‘t is dat ik vanmiddag nog naar dat kut project moet,
anders was ik toch naar huis gegaan.

Dus, lang leve het openbaar vervoer!

“Happy, free, and independent again”
That were my words just a few hours ago.
But … now it starts getting late, and it is
dark outside. I feel like shit again. I miss
her so much right now. And tomorrow again
I will be happy all day, untill the evening.
The evening, because, that is the time we
always used to talk.

*sigh*

I have been a fool, to not see, to not want to see,
that is was over, but the signs were there for months.
How her beautiful singing voice, that sounds of her voice
that used to make me happy and calm, how that voice
turned cold as ice. Almost hurting my ears listening to it.
And when I asked if something was wrong, she said she
had a cold. But what she really ment was her heart was cold.
How she once used to laugh about ‘weeemooo’ but recently
she acted like she didn’t hear it at all.
And so, I can go on, about all little things, that I didn’t see,
that I didn’t want to see, but, all the signs that is was going
to end, they were there already for a while.

I have been a fool in the beginning. What I did back then.
It wasn’t nice at all. Yes, I have been honest, but what I
did wan’t nice at all. The way I left Joyce for Julia. And I
don’t think I deserve a 3rd chance witj Joyce. But right
now, I wish I didn’t leave Joyce in the first place. Joyce,
here, she was here, close to me, real, and I changed that
for a dream, just a line on my screen. I have been a fool.

But now, this morning, when the fresh breeze went through
my hair, I realised how good freedom feels. Yes, I am
free again.

Well … I guess … I can say the news is old now,
There is no more Julia and me. My opinion about
what happened chaged a lot. The very few hours
after it, it changed a lot, and now the days after it,
talking about it to very different persons, who look
at it from a very different point of view. Some people
had a very unique explaination about what happen.
Looking at it, from different points of view. Seeings
things in a way I didn’t think of before. Even including
points of view, that noone mentioned, but still.

I guess I am taking this better then I expected I would.
But … Justin. Justin, he has a really bad time now Sara
left him. I guess, I say this for all BlaatSchapers, if you
need to talk, you can always talk to us.

So, for now. Maybe I am going to create a timeline, with everything
that happened between Julia and me from the start. But
there will be a time missing, because my laptop died in may.
There will be a lot missing from before that date.
But if I have to point a time it started to fade away, it was the
time i got over my depression, wich I suffered from in the time
when I met Julia. Back in the beginning we needed each other.
And, I guess Wouter was right, when he said that we shouldn’t
stay together because we need each ohter, because what
happened after we got over that, when we didn’t need each
other anymore, our feelings started to fade away. Because…
because … we were together for the wrong reasons.

Je hebt het gister allemaal al gelezen, maar

http://www.xs4all.nl/~andrevs/the_full_story.html

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