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A little update about last weekend:
Yesterday I was at school, at the open house.
I was there with Interlink ( www.il.fontys.nl )
A Student Union that promotes Open Source
Software. And I was there with them, to
promote them, and open source software.
Answer questions about Linux/FreeBSD etc.
It was great, just to be there with some friends.

Vanmorgen werd ik wakker met dit liedje in mijn kop:

Death Cab for Cutie – I will follow you into the dark.

Love of mine some day you will die
But I’ll be close behind
I’ll follow you into the dark

No blinding light or tunnels to gates of white
Just our hands clasped so tight
Waiting for the hint of a spark
If heaven and hell decide
That they both are satisfied
Illuminate the NOs on their vacancy signs

If there’s no one beside you
When your soul embarks
Then I’ll follow you into the dark

In Catholic school as vicious as Roman rule
I got my knuckles brusied by a lady in black
And I held my tongue as she told me
“Son fear is the heart of love”
So I never went back

If heaven and hell decide
That they both are satisfied
Illuminate the NOs on their vacancy signs

If there’s no one beside you
When your soul embarks
Then I’ll follow you into the dark

You and me have seen everything to see
From Bangkok to Calgary
And the soles of your shoes are all worn down
The time for sleep is now
It’s nothing to cry about
Cause we’ll hold each other soon
The blackest of rooms

If heaven and hell decide
That they both are satisfied
Illuminate the NOs on their vacancy signs

If there’s no one beside you
When your soul embarks
Then I’ll follow you into the dark
Then I’ll follow you into the dark

This morning when I woke up,I had this song in my head:

Love of mine some day you will die
But I’ll be close behind
I’ll follow you into the dark

No blinding light or tunnels to gates of white
Just our hands clasped so tight
Waiting for the hint of a spark
If heaven and hell decide
That they both are satisfied
Illuminate the NOs on their vacancy signs

If there’s no one beside you
When your soul embarks
Then I’ll follow you into the dark

In Catholic school as vicious as Roman rule
I got my knuckles brusied by a lady in black
And I held my tongue as she told me
“Son fear is the heart of love”
So I never went back

If heaven and hell decide
That they both are satisfied
Illuminate the NOs on their vacancy signs

If there’s no one beside you
When your soul embarks
Then I’ll follow you into the dark

You and me have seen everything to see
From Bangkok to Calgary
And the soles of your shoes are all worn down
The time for sleep is now
It’s nothing to cry about
Cause we’ll hold each other soon
The blackest of rooms

If heaven and hell decide
That they both are satisfied
Illuminate the NOs on their vacancy signs

If there’s no one beside you
When your soul embarks
Then I’ll follow you into the dark
Then I’ll follow you into the dark

Ja, school weer begonnen, en WAT DOE IK HIER !!!!
Kom op school, geen leraar te zien, en om kwart
over drie begint de volgende les pas, had kunnen
uitslapen!

*sigh*

So, school started again today … so … i show up at school
but the teacher doesn’t. And the next class is in 4 hours.
I could still be sleeping now … this sucks …. Stupid school !!

So, I am now feelings lots better than last weekend.
A weekend without Julia. It really made me feel bad.
All I did was lie down on my bed, with my laptop,
listening music, chatting on blaatschaap chatroom
to kill time.

Well … friday was still ok, but saturday and sunday were
really a hard time. And to make things worse … saturday
night, a friend of mine on msn, came with some more
bad news, so that made me even feel worse than I already
did.

But well … I guess … one positive thing came out of this.
I gues I made a new friend. And this is because of the
netspilt at freenode. I can’t beleive that those things
happened is coincidence. That netsplit on that moment,
and when my X-Chat rejoined the #Syllable channel,
Brent greets me in the channel, and we started talking.
About the thing that happened on msn,
and about Julia and me.
I was happy about that, to talk.

You know what is weird, like also what happened, when
someone is feeling bad, I always kinda know what to say
to make them feel better, but, when I am feeling bad,
I need someone to say them to me.
( This is about Chloé’s blog, and her comment on my blog )

At this moment there is only one thing I am sure about
in my life, the only thing I am sure about is I love Julia

Ja mensen, weer eens iets van mij.
Er zijn wat niet zo’n fijne dingen gebeurd
gister, slecht nieuws van een vriend op msn.
Maar ik denk dat het beter is nu geen details
te gaan vertellen, nogal persoonlijk, maar dit
raakt me toch echt. En toen dat bericht gister kwam
was ik al niet bepaald happy, door weer andere
redenen.
En dan is er nog Adakar, op blaatschaap, nou ja,
dit heb ik al eerder gezegd, en ik zeg het nu weer
eens, adakar, hij is bezig met zijn emoties weg te
douwen, en daarom ben ik bang dat dat ooit tot een
uitbarsting zal komen, zoals dat met mij in december
was gebeurd. Oké, adakar heeft zijn redenen om dat
te doen, maar ik denk dat hij net om die reden niet
zou moeten doen.
en verder … *zucht* … weet ik veel … blah blah blah

yeah … you are hearing from he again,
I should update my blog a little more frequent :P
anyways…. what has been going on …
Julia hasn’t been online for two days now, had
to go to her grandparents … it seems like forever.
I miss Julia …

So, I wasn’t feeling any happy, and then there
comes some more sad news, a friend on msn,
with sad news, something that did upset me,
I don’t think I should write this down on my
blog, since it is rather personal.

So, then the day before yesterday, about
Joyce … I am not sure yet if she really
understands what Julia means to me.
It is not like that she doesn’t know about us.
I already told this before we started dating.

jan 22 22:33:36 «serenity» just tell me the truth if you (like) gracefullwing more then me
jan 22 22:34:08 «thedarkness» i am sorry, i guess i do, *sigh* but she lives at the other end of the world … *sigh* ..

So, it is not like I am keeping it a secret,
I told Joyce from the beginning, but still,
The day before yesterday, it was still like,
when Adakar talked about it, that Joyce
still doesn’t understand what I feel like.

Talking about feeling, that brings me to
Adakar. He is ignoring his feelings, and I
am worried about him doing so, I am affraid
they will brust out one day, just like what happened
to me in december.

mrt 05 12:52:31 «adakar» emotions betrayed me, I’ll betray them.
mrt 05 12:53:13 «thedarkness» but don’t you see you are only betraying yourself by doing so ?
mrt 05 12:53:14 «adakar» I used to be happy and emotional… that made me a swiss cheese… and it ended in me almost trying to kill myself.
mrt 05 12:53:21 «adakar» ^ read
mrt 05 12:53:35 «adakar» people.
mrt 05 12:54:11 «adakar» emotions have minimum as many security holes as windows does….
mrt 05 12:54:15 «adakar» or had
mrt 05 12:54:34 «thedarkness» i see, but i am worried that this what you are doing now will only makes things worse in the end …
mrt 05 12:54:35 «adakar» people abuse windows… people abuses security holes…
mrt 05 12:54:55 «adakar» dude, going numb saved my god damn worthless life!
mrt 05 12:55:07 «thedarkness» i am affraid that you can’t hold in your emotions for even and it will some day brust out … like what happened to me back in december
mrt 05 12:55:13 «thedarkness» that is why

*sigh* … and tomorrow … school starts again …

Sorry mensjes, ik heb al een tijdje niet meer geupdate.
Maja… hier ben ik dan weer … carnaval is voorbij …

Zondag was ik naar Heerlen geweest, optocht gekeken
met Joyce en Randy, maar niet helemaal, zo’n optocht
is eigenlijk best saai, en ik kan eigenlijk nooit lang stil
staan, dus gingen we naar een cafe naar binnen, en
het was gewoon grappig om te zien, hoe onhandig ze
daar aan het tappen waren, zelfs ik kan beter tappen,
( heb vorige week woensdag bij demos moeten tappen )
Daarna hebben we nog ff gekeken, en zijn toen naar de
feest tent geweest, nog een pilsje gedronken, in de
polonaise gelopen en zo voort, en toen terug naar Joyce,
daar nog een dvdtje gekeken “The Time Machine”
Das echt een goede film beloof ik je, meot je zien !!!!

Dan maandag, kwam Joyce naar bij mij … eerst hebben
we nog een dvd gekeken, ja alweer,
“The Interview with the Vampire” ook een goede film, die
zeg maar in mijn top 3 van beste films staat, net als
“The Time Machine” en “A Walk to Remember” trouwens
en tegen 7 uur met de trein naar Maastricht, naar Damiën.
Daar hebben we eerst nog een paar afleveringen van
“Full Moon wo Sagashite” gekeken … das echt om aan
te bevelen, moet je echt kijken … word beter elke aflevering
Klik hier voor de download pagina ( torrent )
En daarna de stad in, op zoek naar Tom, Chloé en de rest.
yeah … das was dus echt wel leuk … Joyce heeft ook nog
was fotootjes gemaakt, maar die komen later nog online,
want Joyce heeft mijn geheugenkaart mee naar huis genomen.
Anyway … na de hele avond in de stad te zijn geweest gingen
we tegen middernacht naar Damiën terug, nog wat Full Moon
gekeken voor we gingen slapen.

Tot zo ver de carnaval …
bedankt voor het lezen

Yeah … i know … i should have updated earlier…
anyways … carnaval is over … and it was fun …
Sunday I went to Heerlen. To watch the parade
there, with Joyce and Randy. We didn’t watch the
full parade, it is kinda boring … and I don’t like to
stands still for that long time, so, we went to a pub
and had a drink, and omg, lol, it was awfull to see
how she ( tapte … arrghhh english word, uhm …
to fill the glass with beer, from the thing they have
in the pub ) … that was really clumsy … omg !!!!
so, after that … we went to the party tent, had
another beer, and danced the polonaise …
After that, we went back to Joyce’s and we
wachted a dvd, “The Time Machine” .. a great
movie, you have to see it…

Then Monday, Joyce came over to my place,
and we wachted “The Interview with the Vampire”
and about 7 PM, we went to Maastricht, to Damiën’s.
And there we wachten some episodes of
“Full Moon wo Sagashite” It is really great!! and gets
better every episode. Get it here. Really … you must
see it, so, after a few episoded we went into the city
to meet Tom, Chloé and their friends. Yeah … and that
is when I first met Debbie … Tom’s gf… yeah … finally
because he was supposed to introduce us for a long time
already :P gehehe… uhm … i guess a group photo will
be online soon, but Joyce still has my memory card,
so I can’t upload the photos yet.. only the photos
what are made on sunday are online… and not all
of them yet… uploading photos is time consuming
and boring.l..
Anyway … where was I … so we met the rest of the
group and had fun, about midnight, we went back to
Damiën’s and watched some more Full Moon, and
went to sleep then …

So… that was my carnaval … thanks for reading :)
love you all,