Nikki…. Nikolái Skvortsov … Nikolajev Hämäläinen
That person is fake…. You could have read that all,
in an earlier post. I was thinking, it was over, the end.
But she… started to talk in my msn again… I said…
I can’t … not like that… my msn displaying “Piknikki says:”
all the time…. but there is no Nikki …. I can’t take that….
All events from the past days, also included, this girl
pretending to be Nikki, took Nikkis blogs offline.
This resulted in Karina being worries, and showing
up in the chatroom what was going on. I cannot lie
when someone asks me directly… and I am sorry
I was the one to tell Karina the truth, but I had to.
I just had to. The world deserves to know the truth.
There are too many lies in this world already.
So, I told Karina, she decided to confront “Nikki”
with the truth… and “Nikki” sent me a threadning
text message on my phone.
She is loosing control, over me, over her lies.
Threadning like that… is just a sign of weakness.
I hope this is the last thing we’ve heard from “Nikki”.
At least… for now… She needs help, professional help
from a shrink, this is not something we can solve ourselves.
And Karina, she’s always welcome in our chatroom.
Even through the subject we’ve been talking about
wasn’t exactly a happy one, I hope that we can talk
some more in the future about happies subjects.
Ik moet je mijn geheimpje vertellen. Ik val ook op jongens.
I came across this blog entry because several years ago I was also chatting to Nikolajev Hämäläinen online who told me that he lives in the Netherlands and that he had a twin brother in Denmark whose girlfriend lives in the Czech Republic.
Anyway I had a kind of romantic connection with Nikolajev but I never knew much about him and to this day I wonder who he was or what really happened. I spoke to him on the phone a few times too but he sounded like a girl so I was unsure what was going on.
This is a part of my life that I wonder about to this day and I wondered if you could shed some light on it… otherwise I’m perfectly ok with leaving this as it is. I apologise in advance if this brings back any bad memories for you.
Sorry about the delay, I haven’t checked my blog in quite a while.
Nikki, that was quite some years ago. A different stage in my life, and back then, the things happened did hurt. But now, it’s just a memory. Still, I kept all the letters Nikki wrote.
Yet, there is one thing… back in the days, Nikki has this blog where (s)he published a few short stories. Whether Nikki is the original author or not, I don’t know. But these stories, I regret not having saves them to my computer. I would like to read them again.
That time, and certain things that happened, has given me certain views. Perhaps nothing that even appeared in the minds of the people involved, but nevertheless, it has shaped certain aspects of the person I am today.
I must say, Nikki has introduced me to Doctor Who. And yeah, Christmas means the Doctor Who special. Furthermore, Nikki introduced me to some bands I’ve listened quite often, such as Placebo and Sõpruse Puiestee. I suppose I consider them as trofees. By that I mean things I can enjoy despite the fact they are related to someone who hurt me.