It feels like … i’ve lost my best friend … lars … nuky …
I know him from the skyos chatroom, first day I went
in there … 30 april 2005 … we used to have fun, had the
same sence of humor, and we became like best friends,
Chatting in #skyos … that was nuky and me … later …
we went to #skyos_offtopic because of some other
people in that chatroom, like Matt and Tomasz …
And we used to have more fun … and laughed a bit
about the #skyos chatroom, how it went dead without us.

Later, when our site, deGekkenClub back then, began to
become more alive, we went to another chatroom
#deGekkenclub, and after it got renamed #BlaatSchaap
Still at the irc.indea.net server, till it went unstabile,
and we moved to irc.chat4all.org … still fun … but …
but … but … then … somehow … he changed … I used to
like him, he used to be my best friends … but now …
I started to dislike him … he turned into a cold person,
filled with anger and hate …
no more fun … no more happyness …
It kinda makes me sad to lose a friend like who he used to be…

I ask myself ? What went wrong ? Is it something i said ?
Have I said something to make him hate me ? Is this
because of the time incident, is this because of us ‘leaving’
the skyos-community … is it about my new school …
new real-life friends that he feels like i care about them
more than about him.
Or some of the new members, it is like , Justin, Toni and me,
we now all got a gf now at the chatroom, maybe that is what
it is about …
Or is it about his new school … his new house …

What went wrong … Why ?? What made this happen ?
Losing my best friend …

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