Oh, i haven’t updated this english blog in a while,
so all you, non-dutch speaking people, who don’t visit
the blaatschaap chatroom, don’t know what happened the
pas month, well … you have read my december posts,
so i guess you already know about me suffering from
depression.
And if you see my 19 december post … my first msn
conversation with Julia …
I guess i can say she saved me, she helped me to get
over this depression, well … i am not completely
over it, but i can live with it now, but i can say
if Julia had not been there that day … i don’t know
if i was still alive then, i am serious about this.

The past few weeks, we have chatted almost every day.
Sometimes is was almost scary, like i was talking to
myself, at some things we are soo much the same …
And still, today, Julia, she is the reason i for live today.

*sigh*

I love Julia and she loves me, but … we live on the
other side of the world, and the age difference, so,
this can never work… but that doesn’t change the way
we feel…

*sigh*

Still … I have now a girlfriend … Joyce, she comes
to here tomorrow :) I need someone in my real life …

*sigh*

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